I never dreamed I would use a frowny face in a title, but if ever there was a day, this is the day.  

An almost meaningless piece of paper from MOWCYA was missing and we weren't submitted today.  The truly infuriating part is that it took our agency hours to relay the information.  We're so angry, there just isn't much that we can say about this at all today except that we are really, really angry.

We know so many people are watching us, maybe thinking that they'll want to adopt someday too, and we know that our story is not encouraging.  Ours is like the worst-case scenario that you hear rumors about when you start an adoption.  Like there is a textbook out there somewhere with our picture in it and it says, BEWARE adoption can go like this.  

And we know that when we get bad news, it doesn't just affect us.  It affects River, our families, and lest we forget... the nine month old baby still sitting in the transition home without parents.

It feels like a lot of weight to carry when nothing is going right.  

But I guess what we want everyone to know is that this does suck right now.  We are angry.  We are so incredibly sad.  We are.  We're not going to pretend like we're not.  But it is worth it.  She is worth all of this.  If we have to feel this way, I'm glad we're doing it for her.

Whatever has happened to us, we're going to be ready for her when she comes home.  We'll be ready to handle whatever she throws at us.  Because we'll know what we went through to get to her and we'll know what she's been through to get to us.  
dee lacy
7/5/2012 09:23:14 am

praying praying praying for you. I know God is in control and we all have to ALWAYS remember that, no matter how cruddy things seem. Love you guys. Hugs and great big PRAYERS!!!!!

7/5/2012 10:11:36 am

My heart breaks for you....but you are right.....It just makes it more worth it in the end. Prayers for you and baby and family. It's always in Gods' Time!

karen maryfield
7/5/2012 11:49:38 am

Im so sorry guys...praying for you all! God has a plan and willow is so blessed to have everyone already love her so much!

7/5/2012 12:37:17 pm

Praying for you guys! Miss you!
Psalm 34:18

18 The Lord is close to the brokenhearted
    and saves those who are crushed in spirit.

7/5/2012 01:04:00 pm

Well CRAP!!! I understand your frustration, anger, and sadness. Personally I think it's okay at this time to say "OK GOD, Enough!" In all things, God is Abba - Our Father. HE wants the best for us, can handle our anger and frustration, and like our earthly Fathers can move mountains with His love for us. It is time for this to come to an end and for Willow Tamar to come home to you. I don't know the unfinished business God is working on, but I know He can find a way to finish this without keeping all of you apart. So THAT is my prayer! Hope you're willing to head back to Ethiopia in the future because something tells me if God listens to me you're gonna have more work to do for Him. : ) Hang in there and cry when you need to. Throw a 2 yr old temper tantrum if that's what it takes - God can handle it.

sammy hayford
7/5/2012 09:50:40 pm

Brandy & Logan God is in control of every thing, i see this as a challenge never give up of this. look with God all things are possible He will handle this beautiful and you will see the wonderful God worship. God be with you and have a joyful time.


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